Pre-911 Fiasco
Dear Reader,
I have decided to show the public
the letters, and emails about my concern over potential terror that
began in December 2000. A BACKDOOR research article on the World
Trade Center Bombing in 1993 was sent to [wmdpanel@rand.org] and
[TRC@terrorism.org]. The intention was to do a research article
that would give more credibility to the field of astrology while
at the same time warning of terrorism. I have it in a safe place,
so too does our government.
I have my own story for the
American people. It's been beyond words to explain what has happened
since I tried to to get the information to people who might be able
to do something about it. The best I can say is no direct response
except a lot of visitors from government servers on my site, and
a number of strange occurences.
Just for my own peace, I want
to say that I served my country BEFORE 9/11, AND I think that this
is would make a great story.
Sincerely,
Carrie Lever
carrie@anastrologersperspective.com
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"After
catching CSPAN one morning in December of '00, I decided to write
to the Panel for Domestic Terrorism
because my research was pointing to terrorism for 2001..."
"...I thought for sure that they would get back with me
as this was a kind of threat and I prepared a file of my work that
was most pertinent. I was prepared to teach. (Later, I realize this
was ridiculous!) I waited for that knock on the door. It never happened.
I admit that I worried how just anyone would take that information.
I mean, you could not mention the word 'terrorism' in this country
before 911 without getting a blank or indignant reaction. As
if to say, 'Not in this country, where are you coming from?' My
husband and many of my friends would just look at me as if I had
lost my noodles. It is amazing how one moment in time has the power
to change the collective on such a grand scale. Today, if you say
the word terrorism, everyone listens...
There were a few who listened prior to the attack on the World
Trade Center in 2001. The people who listened were my students and
my mom. My students perhaps just listened out of respect which I
appreciated, but my mom believed me. In May, every year my family
meets up in Myrtle Beach. This particular year I sat with my mom
on beach for what seemed like eternity. I found myself talking about
terror in 2001. She listened to everything I had to say, but there
was nothing she could do. In my realm of existence, there was nothing
anyone could do.
I was so convinced of my work that it didn't matter what anyone
said. I am sure I was not easy to live with at that time as I fell
unknowingly into an obsession that I could not shake. What I saw
in the charts for 2001 in comparison to bombings of bin Laden in
Beirut, Saudi Arabia, Khobar Towers, USS Cole, Tanzania, Kenya,
WTC 1993 were scaring me. There was so much hidden activity.
Early in 2001, I attended a astro-economic conference in New
York City. As walked the city that evening, I remember looking at
a cop on each corner thinking, 'That is good. They know.' Then,
I remember looking up at the tall buildings wondering, 'What
would be hit? How would the terror happen? NYC was a hot spot.'
Before I left, I bought a mug with the Twin Towers and the Statue
of Liberty. I have a habit of buying a coffee mug where ever I visit.
It was rimmed with gold and had a deep blue background. I liked
it. When I got home I made the mistake of putting it in the microwave.
The gold on the mug quickly began to spark. After 911, I would realize
that I had the answers to my questions. I will always remember.
An astrologer can point out time-frames, not knowing the exact,
end result. For me, February, July and September and November of
2001 were very scarey data to watch. It made the hairs on the back
of my head rise with anticipation. You never know who the terrorists
are. For example, in February 2001 after Bush was in office just
6 weeks he bombed the hell out of Iraq. As quickly as it hit the
news is as quickly as it disappeared. Unbeknownst to the public,
Bush had a few terror acts of his own. Usually, astrology points
to the energy that exists, not the person- unless you happen to
be studying bin Laden's acts of terrorism. That is exactly what
I was doing. I was deeply involved in bin Laden and his work after
the bombing of the USS Cole in October of 2000."
"I couldn't believe the Panel for Domestic Terrorism was
not getting back with me. It increased my frustration and paranoia
by the day.
In my naivetee, I thought they had to get back to me because
it was a type of threat. It was their job to follow through. I thought
that it would not matter if it was astrology. Astrology was not
important, it was the threat. I had put down the logic that I thought
a professional would have. Well, I believe I was sadly mistaken.
They would not have to follow-up.
Here, they were the ones on CSPAN asking for help and letting
it be known that terror was a possibility in this country and that
we were unprepared. And, no follow-up! I began to lose respect for
our government. I phoned twice more and got an answering machine.
I sat back and tried to forget, but I was seeing past a castastrophe
that I would have to live with.... and if I did nothing? I would
have to live with myself. I wanted to know that I could have clear
conscience. I would want to know that I did my best, even if
I was wrong...but I didn't think so.
Later, it would dawn on me that this is how the government maintains
control. My work was filed. They were watching, but wondered how
I would know such information. Over time, I was put on a watch list.
To this day, I am not sure WHICH watch list.
Eventually, my innocence would fade and the depression would
set in."
"Below are the first and last pages of the study that was
the backdoor article sent to trc@terrorism.org. I withhold the full
study for my own right to privacy, eventhough there is a few copies
rolling around in our government hierarchy somewhere..."
"the last page of the case study..."
"My webmaster, Linn, created the backdoor article called
'terror.html'. We watched the stats everyday to see if anyone had
viewed it. Approximately 15 days went by, and in that time frame
it was viewed eleven times. When I tried to contact TRC@terrorism.org
there was no response. For whatever reasons, TRC@terrorism.org disappeared
from the internet fairly quickly after 911. So, too, did the Panel
for Domestic Terrorism."
By July 2001, I was getting really desparate. No one was listening
and I wasn't in the mood to give up. Racking my brain, I remembered
my Uncle worked for the DEA in California. I thought, 'maybe he
would know someone who could make a difference.' I called him and
told him I was sending a package in the mail. 'Would he look at
it?'
He was going through a crisis of his own and he was going to
be out of town, but his daughter would be able to recieve the package.
He is a private investigator now, retired from DEA work. His first
response to my call was to ask if I was having marital difficulty
and if needed a private to investigate my husband. I laughed. That
was the least of my problems. I told him I would explain in the
package.
I prepared the package. I included some of my work and the study
on the WTC 1993. I wrote a cover letter stating that some strange
things were happening to me. I was concerned that I might be on
the wrong list with the government. I felt that my phones were bugged.
I wanted to know what I could do about it.
What you, the reader, needs to know is that my sister was diagnosed
with schizoprhenia years ago. I stood the chance of being misunderstood
by my Uncle. I was beginning to sound like a paranoid schizophrenic
and I knew it. I was concerned for my own health. I knew this would
cross his mind. I was taking a huge leap of faith by going to him.
Sure enough, he called me back and basically discredited all
of my worries about my phones being bugged. He taught me how the
government and police think and work. I was wrong about being watched.
He said that he knew a certain someone 'up there' in the government
that he might be able to give the WTC study to. He wasn't giving
any names. He would see what he could do. This gave me a enough
hope, but I still believed I was being watched and/or on a list.
Some time went by and I noticed that California was coming up
in my stats. I assumed that it was my Uncle. I felt releived, I
felt that I could relax because someone was going to do something
about it. I called to follow up he said he had misplaced the envelope.
He was too busy. I remember saying, 'but my stats...' he just said
he didn't know what I was talking about. And that was that.
The day of 911...
On September 11, 2001, I had gotten my kids off to school and
my husband off to work and had gone right back to bed. My phone
kept ringing and ringing. I didn't want to answer it. I was in bed...depressed
with no energy to answer the phone. I would find out later that
my clients, students and Linn were trying to get ahold of me to
congratulate me on my forecast for terrorism in the United States.
When I finally answered the phone, it was Linn. When she
told me what had happened, I ran to the kitchen and fixated my eyes
to that little television and watched in horror the planes flying
into The Twin Towers.
As I talked with a student on the phone later that morning I
noticed a white van slowly passing in front of my house over and
over again. In total he must have passed at least 7 times, if not
more. He did the same thing each time he passed. He slowed, reached
his head forward and turned to look at the house. As if to say,
'Are you okay?' His hair was straight, dark and thick, he must have
been in his forties. He was of a larger frame and had a big head.
He wore black horn-rimmed glasses. The old fashion kind. I think
the most interesting piece is that I live in a gated community and
you can't come in unless you live here or you have the right kind
of authority.
Honestly, I was in a state of shock and denied everything. I
wasn't thinking clearly, at all. It is funny what happens to the
brain in a time of crisis. You don't think clearly- even skiddish
thinking. I ran to the school and picked up my kids. On the way
over I had the thought to buy a bottle of champaign and celebrate....
celebrate what?! The death of innocent victims? It was all so confusing.
All in all, it took 24 hours for me to realize the magnitude
of the research that I had done on the astrological simularities
between the WTC bombing in 1993 and 2001. I was exhausted and enlightened
and sad and then MAD that I was unable to get through to anyone
who could have made a difference. I had even put in the correct
time frame...September 8 and 18. One can only imagine what the terrorists
were doing on Saturday, September 8, 2001. We know that anchorman
Tom Brokaw (sp?) received anthrax via the mail on the 18th....
Strange Events...
The day after 911 I recieved two emails, either one or both
were viruses that knocked out my computer, including my research
on 11 of bin Laden's alleged acts. My usual stats were approximate
100-150 on a daily basis. The weeks following 911 my stats reached
between 400 and 800 a day- most of which I could not track.
I received many strange emails. Once, I was just typing on my
computer and I got the funny feeling I was being watched. So, I
typed a letter to myself and asked, "Who are you? What do you
want?" (Something like this.) I got a reply back the next day
telling me to "QUIT"from manfrankel@aol.com. So, I replied,"QUIT
WHAT?" The email was returned saying that no such address existed...
I still have it. This was not an isolated case.
I became certain my phones were bugged. I became certain that
someone had been in my office. I called a few different investigators
to find out how much it would cost to have my house checked for
bugs. At that time, it was just to expensive. I looked into the
cost of security cameras that my small business could not support.
Nevertheless, on one occasion, my garage door was left open with
nothing missing right away. Then, physical files pertinent to my
research on 911 came up missing from my office. All before the Patriot
Act...
Conclusion in Progress...
This continues to be work in progress. Only now, am I able to
write what happened. Each time I read this, I remember a little
more.
I have to say that the paranoia set in and I fought for my sanity
everyday for a long time past 911. I continue to deal with strange
events even today, but fewer and further between. I have never been
one to 'shut-up.' I would be lousy working for our government for
this reason. I don't know how those guys can be mentally healthy
with all the secrets they keep bottled up. The way they are trained
to think in the government can create mental illness. Denial, lies,
secrets and the drive for power.... I would much rather talk about
it and connect.
Oh well, my work is to change the way people think about astrology.
I am passionate about this work.
I am much better now. It's funny, you know..as time would have
it.... I would eventually get over it. I am so much happier than
I was. I have become much stronger because of this experience. It
was an experience that shook my core. It was too bazaar to share
with others. It was a silent hell for a really long time. After
911, I started to work on my mental health by talking to anyone
who would listen. I learned of other people's stories. My story
was not so different. I began to heal. Now, I write.
Thanks for taking the time to listen,
October, 2005
Carrie
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A number of Federal and State government agencies have visited
this site in the last year and a half. Keep in mind that United
States government computer systems are supposed to be used for official
purposes only.
2001
Agency URL # of Visits
usdoj.gov 17
treas.gov 11
nipr.mil 114
army.mil 36
navy.mil 31
af.mil 10
nih.gov 16
va.gov 26
ca.gov 24
nyc.gov 11
usps.gov 11
ssa.gov 10
state.oh.us 35
state.tx.us 27
state.nc.us 23
state.ky.us 23
state.in.us 20
state.ar.us 14
state.pa.us 12
state.mn.us 12
Other government agencies that visited in 2001 include: usda.gov;
fda.gov; nga.gov; loc.gov; nima.mil; nasa.gov; cdc.gov; fema.gov;
msha.gov; eop.gov; doe.gov; gsa.gov; nps.gov; bls.gov; pasen.gov;
faa.gov; dla.mil; state.ny.us; state.va.us; state.de.us; state.ms.us;
state.ia.us; state.wi.us; state.wv.us; state.vt.us; state.ne.us;
and state.mi.us .
2002
Agency URL # of Visits
nipr.mil 36
af.mil 12
army.mil 9
navy.mil 6
nih.gov 5
va.gov 10
ssa.gov 13
ca.gov 7
hud.gov 7
state.oh.us 24
state.mn.us 5
state.nc.us 12
state.ar.us 9
state.tx.us 9
state.va.us 6
Other government agencies that have visited as of May 18, 2002
include: house.gov; usda.gov; treas.gov; nasa.gov; ncsc.mil; nih.gov;
psc.gov; gsa.gov; fda.gov; lanl.gov; uscg.mil; cahwnet.gov; state.ga.us;
state.ma.us; state.mi.us; state.nj.us; state.nv.us; state.nd.us;
state.tn.us; state.ct.us; and state.pa.us .
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To contact Carrie Lever, please send email to:
carrie@anastrologersperspective.com
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